S-U-C-K-Y

Heyo.

I so want something right now. A farewell party, graduation party, whatever party, shitty party. Pffffttttt. The thing isssssss my class is so sucky. It is even worse than the suckiest class in the world, which makes it the suckiest class in the world. Sorry but it is the fact. Well, maybe not THAT bad. But stillll. And forgive me for the extreme font size changes. The point is thaaaaaat I want a farewell party - even though, it's not really a good-bye-my-dear-classmate-I-am-gonna-miss-you-so-much party cause we're still going to be in the same class for about one or two months. But whateverrrrr. I want want want want. I so hate the fact that I'm so busy doing nothing. Uggggghhhhh.

FINE.

xxxxxxxxx
I wanna hug someone, anyone right now.
Throw a grenade at me. Nobody's going to catch anyway.
ps. Sorry for the the amount of the word 'suck(y)' as noun/adj/v :P

Counting The Stars

I can't even believe I'm blogging right now.

Soo, exam's on next Monday. I haven't even prepared anything. My godddddddddd. Alsoo, need to finish my calendar-paper-in-wire handmade little tiny basket which is really frustrating. Imagine this, you cut your calendar to long pieces then you rolled them into super tiny things that look like medicine then you should put the small thingy to the wire then you bend it till it looks like this :

See that! That's only one part of the basket. There's still like 3 more parts and I haven't even finished the little rolled thingy. And the deadline is Friday, so I need to finish rolling the calendar thingy then asked dad to bend the wire thingy for me. Regret taking craft class. :(

Anyway, I'm so very desperate about my chem. I got zero. :( The teacher didn't let me have the remedial. Fck her.

I'm counting on you, so don't let me down.

I'm so sleepy. I can't even think anymore.

gnight loves.

Soon

I think I need a break. From everything. From everybody, from myself. I think everything that has happened this year is just too awesome and I can't handle that stage of awesomeness so I destroy myself even much more. Why am I such a spoiled kid?

“Once there was an ugly barnacle. He was so ugly that everyone died. The end.”

Don't even ask me what I'm talking about. 

Everything just comes back in a flash and I think I'm going to break down.

This is very exhausting. I think I'm gonna die.

Until I See You Again

Argh. Fuck my life, got disappointed by the scores, got so many things to do, no free time, and now I'm totally stressing out about performing in front of the class. Kthxbye.
See you before Chinese New Year I guess? :)
I guess, you know me too well.

New Year, Still The Same Old Me

I know it's too late ..... but whatever. Happy New Year 2012! 

Saw this at 1549 Bayshore Highway and decided to post it here also.

Things I have done in 2011 (underlined, bold and italic):

Gotten a new piercing.

Dyed my hair.
Ended a relationship.
Started a new relationship.
Been on a long a car journey.
Passed an exam.
Met someone who’s now an important part of my life.
Cried on someone’s shoulder.
Had a massive fight with a boyfriend.
Recieved flowers.
Had a Valentine.
Written a letter using pen and paper.
Gone to see a therapist.
Been prescriped medication by a doctor.
Read a really good book.
Gone to the zoo.
Spent too much money on unnecessary things.
Travelled by train.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
Spent a day out in the sun getting a tan.
Slammed a door out of frustration.
Had an anxiety attack.
Babysat for a friend’s child.
Had a BBQ.
Gone to the fair.
Gone bowling.
Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.
Gone on a date.
Been the only sober one on a night out.
Helped someone home after they’d had too much to drink.
Stayed up all night.
Talked on the phone for over two hours.
Supported someone who’d recieved bad news.
Watched some kind of live sporting event.
Read an entire book in one day.
Bought a DVD the day it was released.
Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.
Cried as a result of exam stress.
Met some incredible new people.
Gone to several great parties.
Fallen backwards off a chair.
Broken my glasses.
Worn a watch for the first time in years.
Cried over someone in my past.
Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.
Thrown up due to food poisoning.
Cried over a film.
Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boyfriend.(not an ex-boyfriend, but whatever)
Fought with someone in public.


So lame. no me gusta. groar.


Kthxbye. See you this weekend, if I feel like typing. :P

New year, new me. << fck this shit.

x

Shepherd

Holla!

Exams have started since Wednesday and it's not going really well, if I might say. Well, it's obviously my fault because I listened to Satan's Whisperer and also I've always been so careless soooooo yep, silly mistakes here and there. But who cares, at least I try. :p

Weekend tomorrow and tuition scheduled on Saturday and even Sunday. I've got tons of papers to do. Not to be mentioned, I have a completely fucked up sleeping schedule. Don't worry, four exams left and after that I'm gonna be freeeeee. Should catch up with my movies and TV series which are piling up in my drawer. And also I'm gonna buy myself books to read while I'm in Penang. Don't wanna get bored there.

Also gonna help Cindy with her scrapbook. :p

Camwhore a lot lately -.-.-

ps. Christmas is in a week, Who's excitedddd? I am! Though I'm not celebrating in anywhere. It's just I like the Christmas spirit. :p

I know it's late but,
wish me luck, I really need that.
xx

I Moustache You A Question

Hello. A lot has been going on lately. I'm tired. I want this shit to end soon. It's exhausting. I am exhausted. December, please come faster. I'm waiting for Santa. Sincerely, not blessed enough.

Anyway, am sooooooo obsessed with moustache recently. I even changed my blog's name and also header. :p

THE RING!

THE NECKLACE!!!!!!!!!

Some of the picture I googled yesterday. Love it to the max. I swear I'm gonna buy the necklace once I see it in any store.

Anyway, Happy Teacher's Day!
xx

Those Friends

Hi there. These are all sort of um.. Just don't read it if you don't feel like reading my rants.

I actually don't quit blogging. I just stop for a while because there's um tons of assignments and exams and stuffs waiting for me. -.-
And now I'm back with a LOT of things to blog.

No, I'm not gonna tell you the whole story because I know you'll be bored. So I summarized it to just one word : DISASTER. I don't know what's up with today but it's all like I'm running and I can't stop running even though I want to. And I'm so tired with everything. I'm so fed up with everybody's fake faces. I'm so fucked up. I'm so stupid. And I don't feel like living anymore.

I don't wanna be like this anymore. These all are just so tiring. So tiring till you think you're gonna die. The truth is that this has started since I-don't-know-when. Things suddenly gets hard and I have no one to hold on to. That's when I want somebody to hold my hand and tell me not to cry and stay strong. Because I can't stay like this any longer.

OK, I'm telling you. The thing is I've tried so hard - but not my best, I guess - to do all my assignments and homework on time. And today, is gonna be the last day I'm slacking off. I GOT 20 FOR MY BIOLOGY. There, I said it.

I know, this post is all messed up. Just so you know, I still have 50 questions of Math to do and also my Electronics test tomorrow. And also I'm not going home until 5 pm. Believe me, I am gonna die. But there are always that miracle which changes everything, aren't there?

Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time... And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.” 

Haruki Murakami - Kafka on The Shore

Because not everybody will cheer you up when you're sad or angry. Those we called "Friends" aren't really our friends. And those we called "Bestfriends" aren't our bestfriends either. Only those whom we called "Truefriends" will cheer us up, will try to calm you down, will tell us to be strong and will tell us not to cry when everything gets hard.


xx,
dying

Someone Like You

Dear someone,

I don't know what you want. I don't understand what you want. So please stop asking me so many questions that I don't even know the answers are.

Sincerely, annoyed.

Just A Kiss

Hello. This is the very first real post after a long long time.

So, since this is weekend and I'll be having a one week of holiday, I'll be listing five of my favorites song at the moment. :B

• Kaskade Feat. Mindy Gledhill - Eyes
• Bad Meets Evil Feat. Bruno Mars - Lighters
• Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss
• Lady Antebellum - We Owned The Night
• The Band Perry - If I Die Young

I don't know why but I feel like I'm useless. Like there is no more thing that I can do in this life. No, I'm not thinking about suicide. Suicide is a stupid thing to do. I swear that I'll never end my life with such a way. Okay, back to the main topic. Life has been so useless. And I am so not productive. My life is just around school and tuition. The rest of time, I spent it in front of my laptop. I know right, useless. And that's why my eyes ... Okay, don't talk about my eyes. 

I'll post some more shits tomorrow.

xx

can I die now?

So Cold

Well, hi there. Hmm. I'll start with a big laugh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. THIS BLOG IS SO DEAD! I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I POST SOMETHING OR ANYTHING HERE.


Okay, so let's start from school. Well, school is ... miserable, completely sucks to the core and guess what tons of exams are coming up soon. Next week. NEXT BLOODY WEEK. For God's sake, it's only the first month of school and exams are piling up? That's ridiculous. For whoever planned that monthly exams, note this, because I really mean it, YOU SUCK SO BAD. 


Well, my personal life is sort of .... I don't know. It's just I was happy then something pissed me off and then something will surprise me again and I got well, sort of crazy. Maybe it was just me acting weird. 


I think I need some sleep.
Good night.
xx,
A~

Werk

Hey buddies!!

Don't know why I've been so pissed off with everybody.
Well, maybe it's just me or what. I don't know.

I want you to be eaten by a lion!

xx,

A~

Skyscraper

Heyy pals.

First of all, school will start on Monday. I'm soo stressed right now. There's so many things stucked in my head and I don't know how to get it out of my head. Okay, I've got one problem. Sooooo, .........I think I won't be able to blog for a long time because:
1. school will start soon, which means I'll be really busy preparing this and that.
2. I went to an eye-doctor last Tuesday and guess what, my eyes' minus have raised as fast as a rocket. So I was forbidden to play computer, games, online, browsing, etcetcetcetc.

I'm so sorry. Thanks for reading this whole time..........

Anyway...

xx,
A~

9/28

Argh. I hate school!

This is a disaster. And this is what makes me hate school.

Put It On Me

My life is filled with anger, jealousy, egoism, regret, dispute, disappointment, ... emptiness. There's no love. And I have nothing to live for. And I am tired of everything. Of my friends, of my family, of everybody. And I just wish I was born in another life.

Sometimes, I just want to relax, take a deep breath and be grateful for what I already have now. But I just can't. And although I know that no matter what happens to me, to everybody, God will give me a better plan after all.

And for now ...

Good night.

xx.

Weeping

I love you. That's all I can say. And I'm tired of faking that everything is alright. Because I'm not okay. And I never am.

Bang Bang Bang

Good afternoon. I'm back bitches. Hahaha. So, what's up? This holiday is as boring as hell that I don't even know what era I'm in. At this very time, I really would go to my boring tuition rather than stay home all day like a dog. Seriously. I don't hang out. I don't spend my time with my friends, especially Cindy because I got boring seeing her everyday. :p

Let's list my everyday-boring-routine:
Wake up. Mostly at nine or ten. :p - Breakfast. - Online for a few minutes. - Morning shower. - Lunch. - Online again. Or probably watch DVDs. - Tea time. - Evening shower. - Dinner. - Online. - Sleep. - Dream. - Wake up. - Breakfast. - and so on and so on.

This is so boh-ring. I've never been so bored.
Alright, no more shitting here.
xx,
The boring me.

Hair

Hi! Have been pretty good lately. I'm so so so lazy to update this dead blog like seriously! I'm kinda good at school stuff though but not the physics! It sucks, you know. How are we supposed to learn about lens and mirror and whatsoever and so on and so on.?! My head is like going to explode already. I don't know. Sucks sucks sucks!!!

Alright, put the school stuff aside! I'm talking about ... final exam. Okay, it's still school stuff. *sigh The effing exams will be on Monday, which means no watching television, no watching vampire diaries, no watching glee, no blogging, no playing gourmet ranch, and so on and so on. How?! How can I survive without internet?! I know I keep complaining. But what can I do? I am just ... desperate!

But wait, I miss the fun! Shit, I still can't believe that I'm not going to the prom party!! But Thea's going there with Piero and I'll help her choose the dress. I'm a good friend, aren't I? I'll give out the pictures soon enough.

Alright, I'm sleeping.
xx,
A~

Edge Of Glory

Hi.

Back to blogger. Hehehe. So I'm free this morning. I watched The Vampire Diaries online last night. But seriously, it takes years. Ergh. I haven't finished watching though. It starts from the beginning when I opened it this morning. Annoying. -.-

And anyway, IX-1 students are going to Brastagi today. Safe trip to them. :D It's so nice. Ahhh. I want a long holiday too. Fuck yeah, I still have stuff to learn, tests to do. Sigh.

Alright, school.
Bye.
xx,
A~