Take Care

K, so since this is December already and finals are probably coming in two weeks, I'm getting busy. Busy as in I need to photocopy this and that and this and that and this and that. Need to do more Math and Physics exercises. Haven't studied anything yet. I'm as good as dead.

SO, you might be asking why I am posting in the middle of the night. You know, I'm so sleepy, but I force myself to type this post. It's because of this one thing that has been bothering my mind since god-knows-when. And that one thing is a person who is too bokangco to read someone's chat from this someone's phone without this someone's permission (read: kepo). And not to mention, this person also offered this someone to take her phone and read her chat. Ok, let's just say I'm typing this as my thoughts (and not as my curse to this person because this type of person is getting to my nervesssss).

First thing first, why on earth would you take (or in this case she snatched) this someone's phone? Do you not have your own phone? Should you snatch his phone? It's like HIS PHONE. And you have your own phone. 

Next. Why on earth would you read that someone's chat (or in this case, MY chat with him)? Do you not understand the term we use to describe something which is not meant for public? PRIVACY dude! Everybody has their own privacy. You don't have your own privacy mehhhhhh? 

Next, why would you even offer this someone to read your chat with your bf? (It's not like he is interested in your love story like you do in OUR love story.) Do you not know that he is not FA KIN DAM like you are? 

Don't you hate it? Stupid question, yes, I hate that type of person. I would never ever take somebody's phone and read his/her chat without his/her permission. I understand how it feels being interfered by busybodies. That's why I would never do that.

Okay, I'm off to sleep. Spend one hour typing this. -.-

ps. Tomorrow is my lunar birthday. Yes, thank you. :p

xoxo

Dancing In The Dark

Hello.


Explanation of THIS post : 


I don't really get upset because I got twenty for my biology. I mean, like seriously, I am in my third year of junior high school, why am I supposed to be upset just because of THAT thing? I had even ever got zero. So, that's not big a deal. The thing is that everybody can't stop giving me THAT kind of stare which makes me think that I am actually an alien which has just landed on Earth. And you know what, that's not helping. That actually makes it worse. And please mind your own business and stop asking why that shitty teacher gave me twenty.


I might be a drama queen sometimes. Because I can hardly keep things to myself. But I keep things which um I think important for myself. Things like school stuff aren't really important right? So I kept blabbering about that thing and about the fucking teacher to everyone. Well, not literally everyone. But in five years, nobody will actually ask you about your biology mark, will they? -.-


Another thing that pissed me off was .... that driver who usually picks me up to and from school, said to my mom that I was scolding him. I was like why on earth would I scold you man? I've had enough trouble that day. Should I actually waste the rest of my energy scolding you? I was just simply told you to fetch me earlier the next day so I won't be late for my tuition. I wasn't scolding you. I was just simply telling you, well, in a sarcastic tone. Who will still be nice if he picked you up an hour after your school ended? I am a little, well not just a little, annoyed. Remember, I get annoyed easily. So I sort of using sarcastic tone. Still, that's not my fault. :p


Er so that's that. Anyway, got PE test tomorrow. I haven't even read the first page yet. So, I'd better be off.


ps: my earphone is broken. Does anyone want to volunteer to buy me a new one? hehe
pps: I love how my close friends call me VINA. hehehe

Knowing that someone loves me no matter what, that just makes my day.

Loving today *grin*,
Vina

Those Friends

Hi there. These are all sort of um.. Just don't read it if you don't feel like reading my rants.

I actually don't quit blogging. I just stop for a while because there's um tons of assignments and exams and stuffs waiting for me. -.-
And now I'm back with a LOT of things to blog.

No, I'm not gonna tell you the whole story because I know you'll be bored. So I summarized it to just one word : DISASTER. I don't know what's up with today but it's all like I'm running and I can't stop running even though I want to. And I'm so tired with everything. I'm so fed up with everybody's fake faces. I'm so fucked up. I'm so stupid. And I don't feel like living anymore.

I don't wanna be like this anymore. These all are just so tiring. So tiring till you think you're gonna die. The truth is that this has started since I-don't-know-when. Things suddenly gets hard and I have no one to hold on to. That's when I want somebody to hold my hand and tell me not to cry and stay strong. Because I can't stay like this any longer.

OK, I'm telling you. The thing is I've tried so hard - but not my best, I guess - to do all my assignments and homework on time. And today, is gonna be the last day I'm slacking off. I GOT 20 FOR MY BIOLOGY. There, I said it.

I know, this post is all messed up. Just so you know, I still have 50 questions of Math to do and also my Electronics test tomorrow. And also I'm not going home until 5 pm. Believe me, I am gonna die. But there are always that miracle which changes everything, aren't there?

Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time... And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.” 

Haruki Murakami - Kafka on The Shore

Because not everybody will cheer you up when you're sad or angry. Those we called "Friends" aren't really our friends. And those we called "Bestfriends" aren't our bestfriends either. Only those whom we called "Truefriends" will cheer us up, will try to calm you down, will tell us to be strong and will tell us not to cry when everything gets hard.


xx,
dying

Get Ya

Well, hello. The last three days of freedom. Sucks. The first day of test will be physics, which I'm not good at. :s And anyway, Vampire Diaries Finale Season is absobloodylutely GREATTT! You guys should watch it! But well, the season 3 is on September! This is no good. I'm craving for the episodes every bloody second of my life! And now wtf??!! But I have been watching a new series of TV show. GLEEEE. I copied it from Sir Andy. He is the best teacher ever. Well, sometimes he is annoying but yeas he is kind. :)

Anyway, I'm not cool with school stuff. Well, not the study thing, but the people thing. I'm not being rude but they are fucking gigolo - lol this is what Metaurine taught me! Yes, they are FUCKING GIGOLO. I don't know why they hate me or what. Okay, I'm saying this. GO GET A LIFE YOU BITCH! YOU KNOW WHAT, WHY DON'T YOU JUST TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN BUSINESS RATHER THAN KEEP INTERFERING MY LIFE? AND WHY, WHY IN THE WORLD YOU GUYS KEEP CALLING ME WITH THAT TARZAN OR WHATSOEVER. YOU KNOW YOU ARE ANNOYING! AND FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME I TELL YOU, WATCH YOUR MOUTH! OH YEA, THANK YOU FOR YOUR FUCKING BULLSHITTING MOUTH YOU HAVE THERE.

In the past, I used to think that making fun of others is just fun. You know, I'm still so naive those days. And as I grow up, I think it was so harsh of me of making fun of others and I'm sorry for what I've done. I apologize. You don't need to tell me that it is embarrassing, I know it is. Because I did it twice and immediately regret it like ever. But yea, although I regret it, I felt a kind of feeling, a feeling you get after you apologize to someone because you know you was wrong. And it was relieving. I just hope people could think about the shyness of the people who apologizes. If someone apologize to me, I would gladly accept his or her apology without any second thought. It is a prove of braveness, not a prove of losing. Imagine if you're the one who's apologize but the people whom you apologize to, doesn't accept your apology. Now you know.

Well, talking about prom, I'm mix-and-matching dresses for Thea. Well, if I'm not going to prom, I'm not gonna miss the mix-and-match part of Thea's night. :p
She's planning to use this.

Copyright by topshop.com

But I'm suggesting this for her. She'll look cute if she wears this.

Copyright by topshop.com

Well, this is what I want for myself. It is awesome! Once I see this dress, I know it'll fit me. < 3

Copyright by topshop.com

When you get the chance, run. Don't let it haunt you.

Alright, these are all for today.

Signing off,

A~

Dumb + Dumb = You

Hey. Just a short post of my fuckin-life.

So, school is not good. In three weeks time, it's going to be our final test. I'll be so stressed studying those things. I'm gonna be dead. But I don't wanna go to school either. They are just too selfish, brainless. So it's better if the holiday comes quicker. I'm gonna have holiday. I'd rather sit here all day, surf in the internet than go to school and meet those moron. I don't fuckin care if they call me Tarzan or whatsoever. Why they call me so? I don't know. And I don't care. Just so you know, I'm so much better than you guys. Maybe you are famous. You are rich. You make friends with those people who are well-known in this school. But guess what, you are not my friends or my parents, and even my friends and parents don't mind if I scream like a dumbass. So why do you care? Because you are jealous? HAH! YOU STUPID MORON!

And for sure, I don't like you guys. You think by making a class-twitter-account would make you guys look smarter? Guess what, you are definitely wrong. And thank you for your stupid nickname for me. I definitely make sure that you guys get the same nickname.

And yea, one more thing you need to know is that, I don't need you to tell me to be quiet. I'm happy of what I've done. Why are you so annoying and why do you care about what I should or shouldn't do when you can't even keep your own mouth shut.

The reason why middle finger exists is morons like YOU.

Till then,

xx,

A~

The Other Chick

I am pretty random today. So, I have something that bothers my mind. That is THIS friend who is really bothering. I am not saying that I don't like her or whatsoever but it's just she is annoying. You know, bothering others life while she doesn't want others to bother hers. You are lame!

Anyway, school is quite good. Okay, maybe it's me thinking that school is lame but actually it's not. The time passes so quickly. I've just noticed that next year, I'll graduate from junior high school and I'm gonna wear the grey skirts. :D It seems like I've just worn the blue skirt yesterday. Hahaha.. I don't feel like growing up. There are so many things to deal with when you've grown up. You know, college thingy. I'm planning to study overseas. I'd rather be anywhere but here. I know it's a stupid thought. I know that as soon as I stay there, I will miss my family and friends. But yes, for the first times in my life, I want to be apart from everybody. Starting a new life, making a major changes. I can feel it already.

The freedom. The sadness. The creepy things that I'll experience soon. I just ... Alright, too much dream could actually killing you slowly. -__-

Anyway, open this BLOG, if you are an Indonesian. You'll laugh your ass off. HAHAHA.

Going to sleep.

xx,

A!

Highway Unicorn

Hello. I am back. Okay.

I did say that I went to Cindy's house to do the effing project, didn't I? Yes, I did. I went there And guess what? It started terribly but fortunately, ended well. So, here is the story.

I arrived there late. Okay, maybe I'm late but I'm not the latest. So there are 8 people there. Me, Thea, Jessica, Jessica, Adika, Cressa, Christy and Cindy. There are two Jessicas. HAHA.. So, when I came, there are just half of them so we waited for the others to come. I opened my laptop and started to surf on the Internet, starting to feel annoyed by them. Okay, after they came, we was like discussing about the layout of the project or whatsoever. Then this person - you know who I mean by THIS person - who is very BOSSY, annoyed me. Like seriously, I know she is smart, clever or whatsoever but BOSSY? Please. This is a group work. You act like I'm a shit? Then you are the shit. So annoying. Erghh. I swear I would never work in a group with her anymore! No more! Okay, maybe in some case I SHOULD work with her because she is in the same group with me in like every group work. Like science lab or electronics's lab. Errhh.. Gosh, get rid of her!

Despite the worst part of yesterday thing, I did have some fun strolling along the rondure and eating the Sate Padang - kind of skewered pieces of meat roasted over coals which doused with sauce - with Christy, Adika and Cindy.


Anyway, here is the picture:

I only got two. The others are taken by Christy or Cindy and they haven't given the photos to me yet. -.- I am so ugly there. :x

I bought two DVDs yesterday. Finally, I got The Avalon High DVD. I was like "omgomgomg, they have it". Haha. I am so excited. Can't wait to watch..

By the way, our school sucks! You know what, they were like not willing to give us any holiday. But they do. Today is holiday. Tomorrow we go to school but there are no morning classes anymore. Wednesday, holiday again. Thursday, school. Friday, Rebecca Black. Lol. No, we got holiday also on Friday. Saturday, no school but tuition. Erghh.. Sucks right? I know. -.-

I can tell that you are a bitch!

Alright, I wanna watch Avalon High now. With a runny nose. Sucks - again.

xx,

A~

End To The Lies

Hmm. So this is what I'm going to type last night. But because it's midnight already, so I decided to post it now.


So later around 1, I'm going to cindy's house to do the effing computer project. Like what you read in the previous post. Actually the topic is nice. The teacher asked us to make a school blog or class blog is also okay. But those person will turn it into hell for me. You know what is annoying part? Here it is. There is 7 people in the group. But most of the people in this group are eheemm NERD. Yea! N-E-R-D. I'm not saying that I'm picky in this friendship thingy or I just wanna be friends with the popular students. But okay, in fact I join this effing group just simply because I'm afraid that there's no the others groups who wants me in their group. So yea I decided to join that group.


Then I realized that I have taken the wrong decision because even when we were discussing about the thing we're gonna do, they were like what-the-hell-are-you-talking-about . Then I was like okay-never-mind-it's-up-to-you . I have known that would happen. But it's just too late to get out of that effing group soo.. *bigsigh*


Another reason why I don't like that group is that when they told me that we shall gather at Cindy's house on Sunday, then I thought what if I ask Jessie to join us? It will be more fun. Jessie is not in that effing group though. So I talked to them. I texted them saying if I may ask Jessie to join us there. I thought they would agree. Then I realized again, they were that selfish brainless nerds who don't want to share anything to others. Okay, maybe in some cases, they lent me their homework - err because I'm too lazy to do it? NO! Because I can't do it. So they said if Jessie is coming with us, I should still concentrate on the project. No playing. No joking around. No acting like a fool. Then again I felt like a thrown-shit. They - always - make me feel low. Feel stupid. They always think that I'm the one who should do what they tell me to do. Well, let me tell you, I'm not a doll or your maid or your secretary or whatsoever that you need to order so you don't need to tell me what I should do or which is right or which is wrong because that is my option. It's up to me. Not up to you. It's the risk that is should take. Even if it makes me disappointing or sad or happy or whatsoever. Just so you know, I am sick and tired of all of you. You always say "alvina you are so stupid" "what? Alvina don't know what this is" "see alvina is blablablabla". I really am tired. Have you ever thought of my feelings? Others feelings? NO! You only think about your own feeling, your own thing, your own risk. That's what I call as SELFISH BRAINLESS NERD!


I am tired. When will these all stuffs go away? Today, is the last day of studying for all of the 9th grader students. Most of them cried a lot today, based from what I heard. I am now wondering what will happen when we graduate from junior high school which is next year. Will we cry? Will we remember each other although we are not in the same class anymore? Will we be okay? Will we ... There's more than a lot to say. I guess I won't remember anything from this junior high school moment. Well, wait! I got something. 4 words : SHIT! There is no such things like togetherness in that class. And frankly speaking, I hate that class more than I hate anything in my life. I know that maybe we can still change through the time, but I'm not sure about that. Why am I not sure about that? First of all, hatred are creeping in that class. People that are used to be best friends, now sit at a different side of the class. Second, the boys are just too disgusting. I mean it. They talked shit and other disgusting thing. -.- Third, the people there are separated into groups. And they only mingle with their own groups. Fourth, back to the first, second and third statement.  See? That 3 reason is enough for me to hate that class.


Anyway, this was typed yesterday using my blackberry. Seriously, it is quicker to type using blackberry than using laptop. :p

Note that!

Gotta take a shower then have my late breakfast.
And I'm off to the effing project!


With a totally annoyed feelings,
A~

Change The Way You ACT

Just got home from corpus and I found something really disgusting. I am .. Just read this post!


Call me jealous or wahtsoever but yes, you are disgusting and stupid and I HATE YOU! Don't ask me who this people is because I'm not gonna tell you. You are erghhh.. You are nasty. I regret everything, everything I have ever said about you. Because you are the contrary of everything I've ever thought of. I'll never talk to you again. NEVER. Note that! I know this is a public blog but yes this is MY blog so it's my right to type anything here. Like what? Like these words: "FUCK YOU!"


Okay, stop complaining. It's just disgusting. Real problem, because I hate everything about disgusting! So, I got a test today. Let's hope for good. By the way, my housekeeper has returned to her village so I should do some household chores. I should wash the dish, clean my own bedroom and my parent's too. And maybe I also do the laundry. Perfect! Okay, I am being too exaggerate. I am not doing the laundry. My mom does it. :p

Oh yess.. I missed my one hundredth post. :x


It's 11 a.m. now. I gotta clean this fucking damn bedroom.
Bye!
xx,
A~

Don't Turn out The Lights

Hey hey..

Thank's God it's Friday.. :D But there is something about umm jerks and bitches that I might post tomorrow. They pissed me off. Like seriously? They are talking about me while I don't even know them? Fuck yeah!

Good night.
xx,
alvinaa

The World I Knew

Hey hey hellooo..

Hmm.. I am deaf and mute today. Let's just get it straight. I hate today. Everybody is just like shit! Not a good time to talk. Just some tumblr's picture and I'm off. By the way, I love UP! I know right, it's so cool.

 

 

 

Have  a good night fellowss.

xx,

A~

99 Tears

Heyy.. Actually, today has been tough. But someone told me to type whatever I want, whatever I think, whatever I feel in this blog then forget about it. So here we go:

I'm not really in the mood nowadays. Because of what? Yes, school stuff. School stuff as in the people in my class aka fake friends and the teachers - just some most of them. I just dislike it. It's not like I don't like being in school - Okay, admit it. I don't like it there because no one cares about me. It's just they are reallyy.. I don't know what to say. Am I being picky or are they being annoying? That's what I've been thinking the whole day. And the people are not exactly like what you saw them for the first time. Yes, the first time I saw them, they were really sweet. And NOW WHAT? THEY ACT LIKE SHIT. Seriously, if you guys don't like me, just say it. I don't fuckin care about it. And don't you worry because I don't even like that class. I really wish I could move. Anywhere but here. I am so tired of all this damn people. Can you please think about others? Have you ever thought about others feeling? I guess not even once. Damn you!

And to be honest, I hate that class. You wanna know why I hate that damn class so much? Well, let me tell you. They act like shit. They don't care about each other. They hate me. They arghhhh.. Everything is bad. Now you know. I know they are my classmates, but can I still survive in that fucking shit class while everybody acts like shit? I don't think so.

Hmm.. That's all. Now I'm gonna forget about these, unless I want it to be stuck in my head for the whole day.

You know what? I have watched my Vampire Diaries and it is super duper awesome man!! You should watch it. Like seriously. Ian Somerhalder rocks it!!

Gotta sleep now.

Bye.

xx,

A~

Out Of My Head

Hey yeaa..

I am so pissed off right now. Call me sensitive or whatsoever but yeah, thinking today is a good day can ruin your whole day. This morning, for the first time in a long time, I feel alive. Then continue to the school. I just realized one thing. The people in that class is just talking about shit. There is no such as a true friendship there.

Christy went home earlier yesterday. I don't know what happened to her till this afternoon. My math's teacher asked her what happened to her hands. She said that somebody had poured the acid or whatsoever - I don't really know because we rarely talk. This is what I'm talking about. When somebody gets hurt, the others don't even care about him or her. I hate that class so damn much..

So, it's raining again. I hate rain. I really do. :/

It's Thea's birthday tomorrow. :D

Ciao..

xx,

A~

Don't Keep Me Waiting

Hello lovelies!!

I am so so tired today. Everybody really seems like urgggghhh.. The only thing in my mind is why they should move upstairs.. I officially hate everybody who is in the futsal team now. Bzzz. They are so damn disgusting. Why don't you enjoy your whole life without breaking your leg? -__- I HATE 8-3!

So, I found out that I got two mistakes in my economy tests. Gahh.. I actually can get one hundred in that subject also. But, you know, I always make stupid mistakes. Like in everything. Fiuhh.. So annoying.

Okay, my mom is grumbling back there so good night. I'll see you guys soon then. Maybe tomorrow? Who knows? :)

I know it's been a long time.

Wish you luck for tomorrow's test. And I love you. :)

xx,
alvinaL

What The Fuck

Helloo...

I had a terrible weekend! Beside the fact that tomorrow I'm having my biology exams, there are still so many bitches that hate me. I don't know why they hate me but one thing for sure, I don't think that I had ever done something wrong to them. I don't even know them. I've never talked to them. But they were like "oh yea you are so disgusting". MY MIDDLE FINGER FOR YOU!

Okay, so last Thursday, P asked A about something disgusting. He asked if I - yea, me. They were talking about ME - was kinda flirty. Then A said yes. Then she also asked N, T, S and N the same question. And they all said YESS! But then P, who is kind enough to defend me from those people, said that I am not flirty. Then they were like fighting or quarreling, I don't know. I knew all of these from N. So, I am not really sure whether it's true or not. But I got their point. They hate me! Fine, whatever, like I care.

I even ignore everybody, except Cindy, bacause of these things. It's just they are so annoying. They tweeted something that made me freakin out. Oh please. Who they think they are. They are just a bunch of bitches who like to talk about others! Next time you wanna talk about me, you should watch your mouth! Moron and bitches!

Oh yes, go buy 5 mirror for each of you. Because I think maybe you need a larger mirror to see who is the OH-SO-GOOD-LOOKING girl!

You said that he is clever but has no brain. What about you huh? You are a moron, a bitches and even the most brainless and heartless girl in the world! And stop bullshitting.

You said that you hate me and I mustn't blame you. Why can't I blame you? You are the one that hate me. Not I. I don't hate people. But sometimes people can be so brainless when they want to.

Fiuhh. DONE. I have to stop bullshitting also becauseee I haven't even touched my biology book.

Bye peeps.

Gonna have my late shower and late lunch.

15.40 while typing this!

Fml,

alvinaa

If You Ever Come Back

Stop the pity thing. I don't want to sink in that problem any longer. Now, I just want to spend my time with the one I love.

Btw, just now Kevin, who sits at the back of the class, threw a chopstick to me. So I told the teacher. Heheheheh.. I am so mean huh? I felt a little bit guilty too tough. But never mind. That is his fault.

Gotta sleep now.

Bubye.

XOXO,

alvinaL