Hi. Again.

How silly I was to forget about the actual resolution.
So I guess, this is it

• save up at least half of my salary. I really suck when it comes to money management.
• decide which uni I'll be going to. I've never said this out loud but I'm really worried about my future. I just can't decide anything like what major I'm going to take and whatsoever things. The only thing that I can see is a black hole. So now you see how desperate I am.
• buy more clothes. My wardrobe sucks.
• and books too. If I have the time.
• write down everything in a notebook. I have a lot of notebooks butttt I never have anything to write. 
• I guess study hard should still be on the list.
• stay fit and healthy. I know this is like the lamest resolution ever but I should really take care of myself.
• don't eat too much of anything. Once I ate too much chocolate (on my birthday) and then I got sick 6 hours later.
• try to at least update once in a month. I know I'm going to be very busy but I should really post something. This blog is literally already dead. 
• And most importantly, be nice to everybody. I'll try. :p

That's it I guess for now. Corpus will open in 2 days and school's starting in 4 days. I guess I'd better make the most of tomorrow. Pft.

And yes, I almost forgot, happy birthday Janet!

xxxx

Two-Zero-One-Four

Now hi again.

I know I have abandoned this blog for gawdknowshowlong. Now I know nobody reads this except maybe some of the people who just happen to stumble upon my blog. No worries, I'm here for my new year resolution! But before that:

#np: The Neighbourhood - Sweater Weather
In 2013, did you…
Fall in love with someone that was just a friend?

yea, I guess.

Lose any friends?

nope.
Make any new friends?

a lot, actually.
Make any new enemies?

I hope not.
Do anything you regret?

I don't think so. But yolo, remember? So no regrets.
Go to any parties?

yea, some cool parties.

Make much money?

Not THAT much but for me, it's more than enough although I kinda spent way too much of it.
Attend a wedding?

One or two, I don't remember.
Attend a funeral?

yea, gram's.
Get any new family members?

One or two nieces or nephews.
Get into a verbal fight?

yes, I should admit I was really childish but I'm just gonna put that in the past.
Get into a physical fight?

nooo
Attend any sporting events?

none. I've never really been into sports.
Get arrested?

Do I look like a criminal?
Wreck your car?

um don't have a car.
Make any big purchases?

not really.
Learn anything?

a lot. And I'm not talking about school stuff.
Dump your bf/gf?

no
Get dumped by your bf/gf?

no
Develop any new health problems?

I hope not. I'm not one of those health-freaks but I've been eating healthy (or I guess I had)
Change as a person?

I did. Good and bad.
Get any new piercings?

no, so far I only have ear-piercing.
Get any new tattoos?

noo
Attend a concert?

nope.
Start to resent something or someone that you used to like?

yea, you can say that.

In 2013, how many….
Different places did you work?

Only one.
Times did you go out drinking?

Not even once.

Times did you go to the movies?

A few times but not that many times. Around 5 or 6 times.
People did you make out with?

um none.
People asked you out?

It's been a really um quiet year on that department.

Crushes did you have?

I guess one (?) That was ..... embarrassing. :p

In 2013, what was….
Your favorite day of the year?

Favorite day? I guess my birthday? :p I always love birthdays.
Your favorite band?

A lot actually. But the Script has been on my playlist for like more than a year.
Your least favorite day of the year?

A lot actually. When I had the terrible fever on my birthday. What could be possibly worse than that?
Your favorite movie?

Catching Fire is awesomeeeeee.
Your favorite song of the year?

There were a lottttt. Can't mention it one by one. But right at this moment Counting Stars by OneRepublic!
Something that didn’t change at all this year?

Height, hair style, phone too.
Your favorite holiday?

Summer break. Went to Taiwan with my family and Cindy's family. It was really fun.

Misc. questions about 2013
Were you in a hospital this year?

no.
Were you in an ambulance this year?

nope.
Did you make any big confessions in ‘13?

Nothing big.
What’s the best thing to happen to you this year?

I guess my friends are. :)
Did you vote this year?

Noooo. Hopefully next year. :(
Did you bring sexy back this year?

Nah no :))
Was 2013 a great year, an average year or a bad year?

I think it's been a great year and I still don't want it to end yet.

Looking back to my last year's resolutions:

• study harder <<<< HAHAHA failed successfully. Eleventh grade's materials are hard as shit.
• save up some money ><<< I did try to save since I've started working but you know what happened to me when I saw sth really cute but I still managed to save up a really little amount of money. Well at least I tried. :p
• get a new Minnie Mouse for myself <<<< totally forgot about it until this moment.
• finish reading all the books I bought and borrowed ><<< finished 3 out of 10 :)) I just didn't have THAT much time between studying and teaching. 
• finish watching all my DVDs and tv series >><< good news is that I finished Gossip Girl just in time before new year's eve. :p As for DVDs I'm still trying to finish 'em.
• update this blog more often. <<<< failed this one too successfully. I barely had time to scroll through blogs.
• be productive. >>>> I'm totally productive this year. Student council, prom, teacher's day, A LOT :D:D
• be nice to everyone, literally. >><< can't say I didn't try but some people are just annoying as hell.
• practice guitar! <<<< I barely touched my guitar since May. Let alone practice.
• make something DIY-ed. <<<< except you count our movie project as DIY then I had none.
• decorate my bedroom. <<<< HAH thbis is embarrassing but I'm still sleeping with my mom and that bedroom of mine ( and my sisters') is pretty much not occupied.
• style my hair a little bit differently from last year. <<<< can't risk it :p
• practice my English. >><< my writing still sucks and so does my speaking. But I guess teaching kinda improves my English. 
• grab every chance I have and take risks; cherish every second of my life >><< didn't exactly cherish every second of my life but I am grateful for so many things this year had offered me. :)
• teach at Corpus. >>>< I made it! :) I kinda regret it coz it did affect my studies. But I enjoy it. :D

I'm not gonna make that long speech like I did every year. I'm just gonna sleep. This holiday has been reaaaaally boring. But before that,

* I learn how to drive. Took a five-day driving lesson. Can't say I nailed it. Still need to practice. Like a lot.

* After thinking about it over and over again, I decided to still teach at corpus. Because

* I'm going back to Budy's ifyouknowwhatimean :p But pft I'm gonna need to reschedule everything because of budy's schedule. That sucks.

* Finished GossipGirl, like I said just now. The finale is awesome. <3<3<3

* my report. Is going to be the worst report I'll ever have. I think I failed math. It's terrible.

I really wish this year would be awesome. And please don't disappoint me, 2014! 

See you when I see you.

Much love

xx <3

Happy birthday darling!

Happy birthday my other half! 

I'm not the kind of person who can make a really good speech (in case you haven't known already), but I'd just really like to say happy birthday to her. I have known her my whole life. Literally. She is like the older sister I never had. She understands me, just when I thought no one could. Unlike others, she understands my complicated ways of telling things. I tell her things I cannot even imagine telling anyone about. She cares. She loves me (i know you do huehehe). And most importantly, she is now seventeen!!! Which means having driving license, ktp, pemilu and whatsoever things I still cannot do or have. 

I know that I'm just the worst friend ever for not making you any surprise (or birthday gifts personally from me for that matter), but I just want her to know that I love her with all my heart. Although at the same time, I also want to eat her alive. I hope that this birthday you have a blast (although you did already have a blast). 

Cheers to our never-lasting friendship and many more birthdays to come.

With love,

your best friend ever.

Scrt mssg

I think if life separates us and we end up in totally different places, well I'll remember this period of time. And I'll be thankful for that. And I hope that wherever you are, you'll be thankful too. And I think that's the best we can wish for.

It's been like what? Two years? And I think until this very moment, I still cherish everything I had with you. I'm also very grateful to have known you in my life. So I guess I just want to say I'm happy if you're happy too. Good for you. :)

xx

If I Die Young

Hello.

Isn't this little creature the cutest?

Visited this little coffee shop called Mixed Cafe.

And ps. my legs look really ... um terrifyingly huge but long (?) lol ok stop

I know you miss me. :p

I've finished my second monthly test and I'm pretty sure I failed all subjects, except for English, Mandarin and Bahasa. You know, I kinda regret taking science but now that I think of it, I will probably regret taking social class too as I don't like those Geography or Economics or Accounting or whatsoever related to the subjects (or not). I took science class because I know I don't like those social-based issues. But I don't like science subjects as well. It's just I find it hard to perceive even the most rudimentary thing about all those subjects.

Or maybe it's only a pretext that I made up, a plethora of alibis. Just because I'm too exhausted of all these pointless lessons that I'm sure I will not need.

So life has been exhausting as you know that I made an intrepid decision to teach. I found it hard at first as I did not have much experience about teaching other than teaching my friends or sisters. I was laconic at first, explaining grammar and reading texts briefly and explaining the meaning of hard words I don't know the bahasa by gesticulating wildly, hoping they would understand, whereas my students were reticent, as I was still a newbie there. Now I am always irate because now they are being so sluggish as they keep on talking to each other, or to me for that matter, badgering me with questions unrelated to the subject they're learning about. Often I need to cajole them into doing their work. Some of them are extremely adroit while some of them are just not so bright in English. Perhaps for some teachers it's hapless when you got those students under your watch ( actually it is too, for me ), but it's my job to enhance their basic skill of English. I am vigilant that I may seem like a wicked felon to them, but like all other teachers, I just want them to be able to use English properly. (hoek HAHA ok stop)

Guess what I just made a paragraph by using 15 from 20 vocabs that I should be learning as I will have a vocab review this Thursday. You might want to ignore some of the inappropriate usage of vocab as I place them very randomly all over the paragraph. Gosh I sound like a bitch.

Anyways, not that it's important but I have this weird thing that every time I want to talk about something I just can't get it out of my mind. And it's just stuck there. That's probably why I haven't felt like blogging this whole time. Also because I'm soooo tired of school and teaching and whatsoever torture I have in my current life. And oh, the damn short movie my friends and I made for our music class. Actually I made it and my friends acted in it. It took like a month but we didn't get a really satisfying score so it's like so very pointless that I want to stab the teacher's back with a knife. Wow okay that was something.

You're probably wondering where I have been. Well I've been preoccupied by these 3 guys (belle, cs, dro) who took most of my free time because they're just that awesome and fabulous and I love them and stuff oh whatever oh I mope. And hey, it's exactly a month since my last post. Typing feels weird. Yep.

And yes, this post is a very random one - I know that. But I've been crying my eyes out since yesterday because:
1. Bonnie's funeral or memorial is just so HEARTBREAKING. AND I HATE JEREMY FOR THAT.
2. FINN HUDSONNNNNNNNNNNNNN :'(
3. My life.
Now do you see why I've been grieving and crying and I just can't stop. It's really tiring to cry all day long and my eyes were swollen and got all puffy. Now I've got something to make you cry as well.

Now watch and weep. The first is Bonnie's memorial which happened to be so damn emotional that I cried right before I need to go to corpus yesterday. The second and the last are my favorite grieve songs now.

This one sucks. Check this one out instead. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGJV-dmLWNU&feature=youtube_gdata

This month has been hectic and tiring.

But as always, I know I'll be alright.

ps. Thanks to someone for always believing in me, even when I can't believe in myself anymore.

Till later

xx

ps. Happy early Halloween. #Spookytown #spookylife

For All Eternity

I just really need to post this now.

Blaine : "We met right here. I took this man's hand and we ran down that hallway, and for those of you that know me know that I'm not in the habit of taking people's hand that I've never met before, but I think that my soul knew something that my body and my mind didn't know yet. It knew that our hands were meant to hold each other fearlessly and forever, which is why it's never really felt like I've been getting to know you, it's always felt like I was remembering you from something, as if in every lifetime that you and I have ever lived, we've chosen to come back and find each other and fall in love, all over again, over and over, for all eternity and I just feel so lucky that I found you so soon in this lifetime because all I wanna do, all I've ever wanted to do, is spend my life loving you. So Kurt Hummel, my amazing friend, my one true love, will you marry me? 

Kurt : "Yes."

AAAAAA I'm literally being all teary during this scene. Do check the video out in a few days.

500 Miles

No one ever seemed to be scared of losing me, but that was before you came to my life. :)

Returning from cs' house for movie-making.

We are the crazy people. 

Cloud 999

HAHAHHAHAHHHHAHA

At thamrin before watching smurfs 2

We know we're ohsuhm

Mana lebih jelek?

Indoor and outdoor. And btw, I love my not-so-new dreamcatcher necklace. Hehehehe

My annoying yet cute cousin. 

"Because I know it's always been you all along."

I swear we did not have any intention to wear the same t-shirt. We just happen to show up wearing the same hush puppies shirts, only in different colour.

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walked 1000 miles
To fall down at your door

till then.

xx