BULLSHIT AND PARTY: 2013

Nov 19, 2013

Happy birthday darling!

Happy birthday my other half!

I'm not the kind of person who can make a really good speech (in case you haven't known already), but I'd just really like to say happy birthday to her. I have known her my whole life. Literally. She is like the older sister I never had. She understands me, just when I thought no one could. Unlike others, she understands my complicated ways of telling things. I tell her things I cannot even imagine telling anyone about. She cares. She loves me (i know you do huehehe). And most importantly, she is now seventeen!!! Which means having driving license, ktp, pemilu and whatsoever things I still cannot do or have.

I know that I'm just the worst friend ever for not making you any surprise (or birthday gifts personally from me for that matter), but I just want her to know that I love her with all my heart. Although at the same time, I also want to eat her alive. I hope that this birthday you have a blast (although you did already have a blast).

Cheers to our never-lasting friendship and many more birthdays to come.

With love,

your best friend ever.

Nov 11, 2013

Scrt mssg

I think if life separates us and we end up in totally different places, well I'll remember this period of time. And I'll be thankful for that. And I hope that wherever you are, you'll be thankful too. And I think that's the best we can wish for.

It's been like what? Two years? And I think until this very moment, I still cherish everything I had with you. I'm also very grateful to have known you in my life. So I guess I just want to say I'm happy if you're happy too. Good for you. :)

Oct 27, 2013

If I Die Young

Hello.

Isn't this little creature the cutest?

Visited this little coffee shop called Mixed Cafe.

And ps. my legs look really ... um terrifyingly huge but long (?) lol ok stop

I know you miss me. :p

I've finished my second monthly test and I'm pretty sure I failed all subjects, except for English, Mandarin and Bahasa. You know, I kinda regret taking science but now that I think of it, I will probably regret taking social class too as I don't like those Geography or Economics or Accounting or whatsoever related to the subjects (or not). I took science class because I know I don't like those social-based issues. But I don't like science subjects as well. It's just I find it hard to perceive even the most rudimentary thing about all those subjects.

Or maybe it's only a pretext that I made up, a plethora of alibis. Just because I'm too exhausted of all these pointless lessons that I'm sure I will not need.

So life has been exhausting as you know that I made an intrepid decision to teach. I found it hard at first as I did not have much experience about teaching other than teaching my friends or sisters. I was laconic at first, explaining grammar and reading texts briefly and explaining the meaning of hard words I don't know the bahasa by gesticulating wildly, hoping they would understand, whereas my students were reticent, as I was still a newbie there. Now I am always irate because now they are being so sluggish as they keep on talking to each other, or to me for that matter, badgering me with questions unrelated to the subject they're learning about. Often I need to cajole them into doing their work. Some of them are extremely adroit while some of them are just not so bright in English. Perhaps for some teachers it's hapless when you got those students under your watch ( actually it is too, for me ), but it's my job to enhance their basic skill of English. I am vigilant that I may seem like a wicked felon to them, but like all other teachers, I just want them to be able to use English properly. (hoek HAHA ok stop)

Guess what I just made a paragraph by using 15 from 20 vocabs that I should be learning as I will have a vocab review this Thursday. You might want to ignore some of the inappropriate usage of vocab as I place them very randomly all over the paragraph. Gosh I sound like a bitch.

Anyways, not that it's important but I have this weird thing that every time I want to talk about something I just can't get it out of my mind. And it's just stuck there. That's probably why I haven't felt like blogging this whole time. Also because I'm soooo tired of school and teaching and whatsoever torture I have in my current life. And oh, the damn short movie my friends and I made for our music class. Actually I made it and my friends acted in it. It took like a month but we didn't get a really satisfying score so it's like so very pointless that I want to stab the teacher's back with a knife. Wow okay that was something.

You're probably wondering where I have been. Well I've been preoccupied by these 3 guys (belle, cs, dro) who took most of my free time because they're just that awesome and fabulous and I love them and stuff oh whatever oh I mope. And hey, it's exactly a month since my last post. Typing feels weird. Yep.

And yes, this post is a very random one - I know that. But I've been crying my eyes out since yesterday because:
1. Bonnie's funeral or memorial is just so HEARTBREAKING. AND I HATE JEREMY FOR THAT.
2. FINN HUDSONNNNNNNNNNNNNN :'(
3. My life.
Now do you see why I've been grieving and crying and I just can't stop. It's really tiring to cry all day long and my eyes were swollen and got all puffy. Now I've got something to make you cry as well.

Now watch and weep. The first is Bonnie's memorial which happened to be so damn emotional that I cried right before I need to go to corpus yesterday. The second and the last are my favorite grieve songs now.

This one sucks. Check this one out instead. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGJV-dmLWNU&feature=youtube_gdata

This month has been hectic and tiring.

But as always, I know I'll be alright.

ps. Thanks to someone for always believing in me, even when I can't believe in myself anymore.

Till later

ps. Happy early Halloween. #Spookytown #spookylife

Sep 27, 2013

For All Eternity

I just really need to post this now.

Blaine : "We met right here. I took this man's hand and we ran down that hallway, and for those of you that know me know that I'm not in the habit of taking people's hand that I've never met before, but I think that my soul knew something that my body and my mind didn't know yet. It knew that our hands were meant to hold each other fearlessly and forever, which is why it's never really felt like I've been getting to know you, it's always felt like I was remembering you from something, as if in every lifetime that you and I have ever lived, we've chosen to come back and find each other and fall in love, all over again, over and over, for all eternity and I just feel so lucky that I found you so soon in this lifetime because all I wanna do, all I've ever wanted to do, is spend my life loving you. So Kurt Hummel, my amazing friend, my one true love, will you marry me?

Kurt : "Yes."

AAAAAA I'm literally being all teary during this scene. Do check the video out in a few days.

Sep 16, 2013

500 Miles

No one ever seemed to be scared of losing me, but that was before you came to my life. :)

Returning from cs' house for movie-making.

We are the crazy people.

Cloud 999

HAHAHHAHAHHHHAHA

At thamrin before watching smurfs 2

We know we're ohsuhm

Mana lebih jelek?

Indoor and outdoor. And btw, I love my not-so-new dreamcatcher necklace. Hehehehe

My annoying yet cute cousin.

"Because I know it's always been you all along."

I swear we did not have any intention to wear the same t-shirt. We just happen to show up wearing the same hush puppies shirts, only in different colour.

But I would walk 500 miles
And I would walk 500 more
Just to be the man who walked 1000 miles
To fall down at your door

till then.

Sep 11, 2013

911

I've had enough shit for today, so I'm just gonna count my blessings.
What makes me happy?
Seeing my family

What makes me laugh all the time?
My classmates

What makes me feel excited?
Celebrating birthdays

What makes me scary?
Teaching

What makes me feel loved?
Talking to you

What makes me feel like it's not the end of the world?
Listening to your voice

It sums up everything perfectly.

Bye for now.
xx

Jul 7, 2013

Kambing Jantan

"Aku berantakan kalo ga ada kamu."
:)

Jun 18, 2013

Daily Dose of Craziness

Hi. It's been a long time. It feels so good to finally type again. Hahaha.

So, let me see. I've finished my exam. Holiday has started. And um I'm busy. Pft. Hell busy. And I'm leaving to Taiwan tomorrow. Gawd, I need my holiday. But of course, before that I still need to work my ass off until the day before I leave. And now you wonder what the hell I have been doing for the past 2 weeks.

Oh, yea, I am a member of the student council which is good, really, beside the fact that I should come to school to help the admin staff. We, osis members, were asked to help the new students fill the the identification forms (there are 5 of it for gawd's sake). So I came to school at 7 for the first week of my holiday. And as for the second week, I am busy preparing myself to be a teacher. Yes, you read that right. Don't be THAT shocked. I can be a pretty good teacher. lol Sir Franky asked me last year and I said I'd think about it. And then two weeks ago when I came to corpus, he suddenly asked me again about his offer, so I just said yes. And I started the training directly the next day. So I have been going to corpus a lot lately to join the class observation with different teachers so that I can learn from them. Well, I was offered to teach the Basic English classes. I don't know if I can do it, but I'll try. Some of the teachers I have already known support me, which is really nice of them.

Some pictures of me enjoying my life for the last 3 months. :)