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Cindy's birthday party. Well, I look weird...

I went to Brastagi with cindy and cynthia. Took zillions of pictures there. lol

I like this one. Stole these two from cindy's

when I got home from :P

Went to this cafe called Mind Cafe with Cindy, Cynthia, Jescelyn, Kimberly and Richard. It's so nice meeting them again. They moved to Singapore 3 years ago. The cafe is really nice. The food is okay. And there are lots of board and card games. We stayed there a little bit longer playing uno. :D

my childhood palss. left to right: Kim - Jesc - Cynthia - Mehh - Cindy. No Richard tho, he's too shy to hang with us :P

 Went to Sun with them again, minus Richard. Watched The Hobbit.

when I got home, as usual

oh please tolerate my camwhoreness. I can never get over it. :P

From my bbm contact's display pictures :P

Anyways, I spent the last 4 days watching gossip girl and vampire diaries. Trust me, I'm so bored I could die. Finally, a day out after 4 days of lazy-ing. We're going to spend our New Year's Eve together. Hehehe
Alright. Gottaaa goo. Cindy's fetching me in half an hour and I haven't even taken my bath. HAHAHA. Well,  just like what Raditya Dika said, "Mandi: sesuatu yg merusak hari libur." lol 
xxxxx
lots of love!

Well?

Well, it happened. :)

HOLIDAYSSS!

OH HI THERE!

This blog is like sooooooo dead. Basically, this blog was made so that I can express my feelings and thoughts, to write about things that have happened in my life, to mark important moments in my life. Well, since I've been busier than I have ever been in my entire life, I don't think I can actually update this blog as often as I used to. :( I promise myself to work my ass off this semester. Plus I don't really got the feel to blog, you know? I'm free all day long. Guess what I've been doing half of my holiday? Yep, slacking around watching gossip girl and vampire diaries. Well, haven't posted anything for almost forever. Well, I did but it's just one or two lazy posts and it's something I took from tumblr. And now I'm forcing myself to post something again. It's really weird because I loved to blog. Like really. And then suddenly I just don't feel like blogging anymore. It just happened.

Anyways, since I still don't know what to type here, so I'll just do this first. I found this while scrolling down my blog just now. :P It's what I posted last year.


Gotten a new piercing. I had my ears pierced :D
Dyed my hair.
Ended a relationship.
Started a new relationship.
Been on a long a car journey. If 3 hours is long enough hehehe
Passed an exam.
Met someone who’s now an important part of my life.
Cried on someone’s shoulder.
Had a massive fight with a boyfriend.
Recieved flowers.
Had a Valentine. 
Written a letter using pen and paper.
Gone to see a therapist.
Been prescriped medication by a doctor.
Read a really good book.
Gone to the zoo.
Spent too much money on unnecessary things. typical meh. :P
Travelled by train.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex. I guess you can say it that way.
Spent a day out in the sun getting a tan.
Slammed a door out of frustration. always :P
Had an anxiety attack. 
Babysat for a friend’s child.
Had a BBQ.
Gone to the fair.
Gone bowling.
Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.
Gone on a date.
Been the only sober one on a night out.
Helped someone home after they’d had too much to drink.
Stayed up all night.
Talked on the phone for over two hours.
Supported someone who’d recieved bad news. :(
Watched some kind of live sporting event.
Read an entire book in one day.
Bought a DVD the day it was released.
Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.
Cried as a result of exam stress.
Met some incredible new people.
Gone to several great parties.
Fallen backwards off a chair.
Broken my glasses. I scratched it :(
Worn a watch for the first time in years.
Cried over someone in my past.
Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.
Thrown up due to food poisoning.
Cried over a film. I'm such a crybaby
Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boyfriend. trust me, it's awkward
Fought with someone in public. 

Okay, done with this. Now what? #np Trainwreck - Demi Lovato. I remember loving this song. lol
Ehmmm, merry christmas and happy new year!
This is so awkward. I don't know what to sayyyy. lol

Next part, resolutions. Believe me, this is the first resolutions I ever have.

• study harder so that I don't get kicked out of the class. Work my ass off!
• save up some money.
• get a new Minnie Mouse for myself. My old one which I already have since I was 5 is old enough to be replaced. Well, it's still so fluffy. And God knows how much I love it. :(
• finish reading all the books I bought and borrowed. I have literally 2 I bought last year and 1 I bought last week, 3 borrowed from cindy and 1 from thea, 2 given from my friends as my birthday present. See how many there are?
• finish watching all my DVDs. I haven't even watched the ones I bought last year. Plus I have to catch up some tv series. 
• update this blog more often. And of course, blog as in write something about myself, not copy-pasting.
• be productive. Well, since I'm in the student council now (yes, I'm in the student council!!!!), that won't be a problem. We're always busy kepochiang-ing.
• be nice to everyone, literally. I've been the worst friend ever for the last few months.
• practice guitar! I hope I mastered all the hard chords by the end of nest year.
• make something DIY-ed.
• decorate my bedroom.
• style my hair a little bit differently from last year.
• practice my English. Writing and speaking, especially.
• grab every chance I have and take risks; cherish every second of my life
• teach at Corpus. I wishhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Sir Franky offered me to teach BE class at corpus. I want to, but I don't know if I can spare some time between my tight schedules to teach there.

There are literally a lotttttt that I'd love to talk about. It's just I've already forgotten half the things I wanted to say. lol

Anw, since I'm such a kind person, I'm going to introduce her to you. I promised her that I'd post sth about her. :P There you gooooo.

Jessie "Memet" Metaurine

Twitter acc : @jessiemetaurine

You know where to find her ;)

Alright thennn, I'm off to sleep.

Eyes are burning.

xoxo

Blair and Chuck

Blair: What are you doing here? I don't have the energy to rehash tonight's hysterics. I think you should leave.
Chuck: I'm not here to apologize about what happened tonight.
Blair: Then what are you here to apologize for?
Chuck: Everything else. I'm sorry for losing my temper the night you told me Louis proposed to you. I'm sorry for not waiting longer at the Empire State Building. I'm sorry for treating you like property. I'm sorry I didn't tell you I loved you when I knew I did. Most of all, I'm sorry that I gave up on us when you never did.
Blair: Thank you. I hope never giving up on people isn't gonna be my downfall.
Chuck: That's why you're going to be an amazing mother. You're always there for the people you love even when they don't deserve it.
Blair: You know that's never gonna change.
Chuck: It's okay if it has to. Starting tonight, I'm going to take care of myself.
Blair: Is that all?
Chuck: Yeah.

 - Gossip Girl Season 5 episode 6

The Best Friend

Happy belated birthday to the best friend in the whole world. :* xx

So yesterday was her birthday. I just want her to know that I love her no matter whatttttt. And ps. jsyk, she's still single so ......... HEHEHE

OH LOOK. I've got bangs now.

I and she. Me and her. We. Us.

ps.I soooo miss my old hair.

How do I look? :P

Check out my feather earring. :3 

Anyways, I know my bangs is like so asdfghjkllu ugly. And I know it's like the worst haircut ever. But you know, I try to be positive and think to myself that this can't be that bad. And it actually works to boost my confidence. Trust me, I cried when I got home after I got my hair cut. And I clipped it up. And I think it looks worse but nobody actually knows that I cut my bangs. I have received a tons of, idk if it's hateful comments or what, but I kinda feel offended. It's not that I'm so sensitive or I'm having my period, BUT ehm who won't feel that way when you go to school and the first thing that anyone greets you with was wow, your hair looks different and so shitty and yadayadayadayada. Well, they don't exactly say it directly, but you can see it in their faces that that's what in their minds. Well, some did say it directly and that's really mean, I think. lol There's a junior of mine and I don't exactly keep in touch with her but when we suddenly bumped into each other the other day, she was like "ooooooooohhhhh, so uglyyyyyyyyy, why did you chop off your bangss?" How can you not feel offended? It's even stranger if you don't feel offended. Probably you don't give two craps about anyone's anything but once people say those offended comments, you'll feel uneasy kannnn? But I don't live to please you bitches. So nowwwww, I don't even care what my hair looks like anymore. Who will care anyway if even I myself don't care? Except that siao guy Arvin who keeps mocking my hair. By the way, that girl is so annoying I don't even want to talk to her anymore. lol 

Well, okay, what I'm trying to say is that maybe you hide yourself so well because you think "it's a mean world, what's everyone going to think?" Well, you can hide, but aren't you tired? Of everything? Even if you hide it so well, one day, everybody's gonna know. And fuck the world, just be yourself! Who cares if anyone's gonna judge you? 

Goodnight
xx :)

I'm A Ladykillaaahhhh

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds.
4. Have Fun!!

I have already done this before. I just feel like doing this again. Let's see.

SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

RONAN :(

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

I'm a LADYKILLER. Errrr. 

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I like BOYFRIEND.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I feel like MIRROR MIRROR. 

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
WHY YOU WANNA know so much? :p

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
BELIEVE! :)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
I WON'T EVEN START about that! 

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
That I will FIGHT FOR YOU.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
DANCE AGAIN! Heeya.

WHAT IS 2+2?

Broken Hearted </3

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
I think that they are STARSHIPS!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Oh please. TELL ME A LIE.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
SO GOOD! Exactly!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I think of 50 Ways To Say Goodbye to him because everything is not for forever (?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?
CATCHING FEELINGS by Justin Bieber

WHAT SONG WILL PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?
BURN IT DOWN! by Linkin Park

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
WORK HARD PLAY HARD! Oh yea!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
My biggest fear is to TAKE YOU.

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
I want EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. 

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I think of my TEENAGE DREAM.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
REMEMBERING SUNDAY. I like Sundays.

I know. It's totally hilarious, and not connected. But try it. It's fun! :P

It's been a rough week. And today's a rough day indeed. I'm tired, of everything. Can I stop the time? I know that I cannot. I just wish I could.

xx

11-11-12

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
‘Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply
I bet it never, ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you
And risk another goodbye

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Everytime I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

We made quite a mess, babe
It’s probably better off this way
And I confess, babe
That in my dreams you’re touching my face
And asking me if I want to try again with you
And I almost do

I Almost Do - Taylor Swift 

Everything has been a mess. I wonder if I could turn back time. Hmm. Maybe tomorrow will be better? I wish so.

Not Young And Dumb

It’s really scary when you get attached to someone. You spend time with them, you get to know them. You find yourself knowing their favorite color, food, movie, song. You discover their flaws and their talents. And as time goes on, you learn more and more, absorbing every second of detail without even realizing it. Then one day, you wake up and realize how much this person actually means to you, and you love them for every strength and weakness. They make you feel warm and secure, but most of all, they bring you happiness. And to bring happiness to someone in such a way is a strong and powerful thing. It could break a person completely. Some say those who fall in love are young and dumb. I say they show an incredible amount of bravery. It takes courage to trust somebody with your entire heart.

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Not Anymore

You are walking down a street and you meet somebody. Anybody. And you look at each other. And you are you. And he is him. yet when you look at each other, the eyes make a connection. Then you go off one way. And he goes off another way. You go off into different parts of town, and maybe you never see each other again. Not in your whole life.

 - The Member of the Wedding by Carson McCullers

Marvelous

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Pretty Boys

Spidey hold my hand! :3

edited with picmonkey. So cute, isn't it? Anyways, happy Hallooweenie! :P

Hello. Feeling both flowery and uneasy today. (HAHAHA WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?) I had so many things to do. Pft. Busy Monday, as usual. Computer tests, physics papers and whatsoever things. Plus our teacher got Typhoid Fever and we planned to visit him in the hospital but then everything is messed up. So we cancelled and just sent the fruit parcel to his house directly instead. And then we need to breed Paramecium for our Biology Lab. Just a typical Monday. Except that today, there were 18 Korean students who came here for the student exchange program. I heard that they're from 16 different schools. And btw, they will also attend our school for .......... one day only. But can you imagine how exciting that is? There's 3 of them who are gonna be in our class; 1 guy and 2 girls. They are really friendly. And they gave out free ginseng candies. :P And the guy who will be in our class tomorrow is really ehm cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Cute isn't even enough to describe him. And until this moment, I can still smell the sweet scent of his body and I can still recall how cute he is when he talks and when he smiles and when he tries to say something but he can't find the right word for it. (ps. They can't really speak English. It's not that I'm insulting, but at least I think we're better in speaking English than they are, no offense)

Oh yea, so Thea and I, we're literally following Jessie and Belle and the Koreans around to show them our school. And trust me when I say, I don't understand a thing what they said in Korean and with their messy English, I only understand half of things they said with the speed of a turtle, slow-loading brain. My brain is still kinda slow because it's filled with the excitement of them being here, Medan, of all town in Indonesia. And by the way, there's only 3 Korean words I know, which is anyeonghaseyo, kamsehamnida, saranghamnida. OKAY. Let's just pretend I don't know any of those.

Okay. I have to stop. BUT IT'S JUST TOO AWESOME NOT TO BRAG! HA! :P
Gotta go. Need to finish my chem and physics and study my biology.
xx
Alvina

Happpy Halloweenie!

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Letting Go

Damon was grieving in his own way -- drinking at Alaric's grave and doing a lengthy monologue. 

Damon : "Floating lanterns in the sky. Can you believe them? Japanese lanterns are a symbol of letting go of the past. Well, here’s a news flash: We’re not Japanese. You know what they are? Children. Like lighting a candle's gonna make everything okay, or even saying a prayer, or pretending Elena's not gonna end up just like the rest of us murderous vampires. Stupid, delusional, exasperating little children. I know what you're gonna say: makes them feel better, Damon. So what? For how long? A minute? A day? What difference does it make? Because in the end, when you lose somebody, every candle, every prayer [ghost Alaric sitting in the graveyard] is not gonna make up for the fact that the only thing that you have left is a hole in your life where that somebody that you cared about used to be and a rock with a birth date carved into it that I'm pretty sure is wrong. [Alaric laughs.] So, thanks, friend. Thanks for leaving me here to babysit, because I should be long gone by now. I didn't get the girl, remember? I'm just stuck here fighting with my brother and taking care of the kids. You owe me big."

Alaric : "I miss you, too, buddy."

-- The Vampire Diaries

Season 4 episode 2: "The Memorial"

High School-s

Hello.
I've been so busy these days. Especially that my monthly exam is in 4 days. Even if there's no monthly exam, I'll still be busy. Being a senior high school student, is far more stressful than being a junior, believe me very much. Every subjects that is tested on monthly exam, is still being tested in the class. I mean we usually only do monthly exam twice and finals once. So it's like only thrice. But now they make us have exams after we finish an unit. So it's like triple-ing our exams. I'm freaking out, really. All of the subjects are like so hardddd that I always think my head's going to explode. But that never happened, sooo I'm still me. lol

I miss my junior years. Everything was so easy. I could still handle homework, exams, tuition and I at least watched one movie every weekend and I played a lot. Now, I don't even have time for my weekend-movies. :( And I don't even know why I keep buying one DVD every week. And the stack is like getting higher and higher. lol. And guess what, I haven't even finished my novel, which I bought at December by the way. See how busy I am? But the novel part, it's actually because it's so boring so I don't have any intention to even finish it. Heheheheh

I have a lot in mind lately. But, never mind. I'm not gonna bore you guys with any of my rants.

check out my TOEFL's score. Super bad. But we can always try again right?

Some shots from Hongkong Trip :D

xx,
goodnight