Six

I normally wouldn't have the guts to say this, but make this an exception.
I wouldn't address these to anybody, but be my guest and feel free to guess. (hey it rhymes!)

6 statements for 6 different person

You've been really weird. And I hate that I don't know what's wrong. But unless you start to be open to me, I'm not going to ask you or even bother to. I know I'm mean. But honestly, I don't really care anymore. People drift away but I hope we won't.
I know I've been a bitch lately, but hey, look at yourself.
Stop disturbing me. I'm busy and I don't like you. ugh.
Thank you for being there for me through all these days.
Thank you for listening to my rants and everything.
Thank you for everything you've given me. Thank you for cheering me up when I'm upset. Thank you for always encouraging me to do my best. Thank you for making my days so colorful everyday. I hope you realize that you are somehow special to me.

April has been so great and I've been really busy all the time. I barely have time for myself. Prom, parade, student exchange test, music projects, school assignments, conversation classes. Gawd, I need to relax. Will post more soon. I promise.

Master of sarcasm I am.
Ily. Don't get me wrong, it stands for I loathe you.

xxxx

Friends

My composition Quiz at Corpus. I didn't get the chance to finish my essay closing so I'll just omit the closing part and change the content a lil bit so that it won't sound that serious. :P Actually, I'm quite satisfied, although it's clearly not THAT good. Because I know I wrote this not just for the quiz or the exam, I wrote this for my friends. Enjoy! :)

TOPIC: "It is impossible to have a good life without friends." Do you agree? And how do you define friendship?

Friends are precious. They are the people with whom you share your world with. It is impossible to have a good life without friends. Life without your friends would be like a school without the students. You feel empty without friends, especially good friends.
It is necessary to have friends. Why is it so? First of all, let's look at the scientific reason. We need to know that after a child is born, the first step of socialization he gets will be from his family while the second will be from his friends. The child will learn about justice when he's playing with his friends. Friends also help to develop a child's character. Friends influence the child, so if his friends are good, he will be good as well.
Besides that, friends can give you advice about anything, even if sometimes they give you crappy advice. When you have problems, they can be a shoulder to cry on. You can share your sadness, joy, disappointment or anything. They will patiently listen to you. They calm you down if you're sad or mad and be happy with you when you're happy. Friends motivate you to achieve your goals. They encourage you to fight for everything you want. They support you for every decisions you make. They stop you from making foolish mistakes. They convince you not to give up when you're about to. They accompany you when you are lonely. They understand you more than anybody else does. They know what's in your head and heart. They love you just as much as you love them. They will forgive you if you ever do anything wrong to them. But the most important thin is that they will never leave you alone, not ever. They will be there for you and you know that you'll always have each others' back no matter what.

I've been feeling so blue lately. It's just that I realized how awful I am and how miserable I am. But I also realized that I have these amazing people in my life. They're my friends and family. How can I forget them? They're like the best thing I have. I don't care how it was and I don't know how it will be, but I know that as long as I have them, everything's gonna be just fine. :)

So this post is for them, my family, mom, dad, twin sis even if they're so annoying sometimes, my best best best, like literally the best friend I ever had, oh gawddd, who else is it gonna be? Ofc Cindy lah. Words can't describe how much I love her. And my friends, especially the ones who have been really kind to me, listening to all my rants, Lause YC and Joandy and you-dont-know-who ;), Christine and Lydia, my classmates, Jecca, Memet, Belle, Brodro, Inzie, CS, Jessy, omg all of them. They're like my second family. I love every single one of them. I mean it. And last but not least, Thea the birthday girl. I promised her this post. Soooo this is for you. ;;)

Teary eyes omg,
xx :)

Nothin Much

What if we're meant to be together but it's just not the time yet? Should I let you go? Or should I hold on to you?

Horrendous Life

I was scrolling down my blog, reading my old posts when I accidentally read this:
Parents, problems, friends, fakes, boys, love, crush, dating, responsibility, drama, heartache, failures, stress, happiness; it's life.

And I recall everything, every problems I had, every memories I remember. And sadly, I don't feel anything except one feeling: disappointment. Maybe my life is pretty messed up that I don't even know what to feel. Or what to say, what to think, everything. 


And I don't even know what's right and what's wrong anymore. And it's hard not to give up when you look like a failure.

it'd be telling everyone what I feel about them.

Ungodly Hour

Have you ever felt so unwanted? And it feels like the whole world is denying you and everybody is leaving you. That everything is not exactly like it used to be, like you want it to be. And it just feels like you want to leave everything behind, give everything up, because all this is so not fair to you. And you want to fix it. But you don't know how. And even if you know how, you don't know if it'll work. All you know is that you want to be through with this and go back to what it used to be. Because your past is so much better than this.

I know, I'm too strong to give up. So I'm still holding on. I'm holding on to the people I love, to the things I love, to everything, that I look so pathetic. I have been my worst self lately. It's like I have a reminder in my head that reminds me every second of my life that I'm a mess. This isn't right. And the worst part is that you can't do anything about it. Maybe I can try and convince myself that it's all gonna be okay, but the truth is it isn't and it won't be okay.
This is too pointless.

I have too many things in my head. I have so much to say to everybody. But I just can't get the right words. I can't get anything right and it sucks. It sucks that I can't explain what I feel. It sucks that every time I want to explain everything, it just disappears. Maybe I'm scared. Maybe I'm not. Who knows? I don't even know anymore.

But you told me to hold on. So I guess I'd try. Happy birthday, A.

But it turns out some people can't be fixed...

- Caroline Forbes 

16-09-12

Jess' birthday surprise.

She IS clearly surprised. :P Too bad I didn't take any of her surprised face. HAHA.

Ayot - Shelley - Jess the birthday girl - me - Jessie Memet - Thyra Thea's sister

Jess and her mom

Candid. Weird candid.

Memet and me

We um caked her?

This, she was caked.

Too busy cleaning herself.

 As a bonus for scrolling to the end:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA whatever

xx.

Bizarre Things

Please enjoy my daily dose of camwhoreness.

At Pat's house for B. Indonesia assignment to record folklore stories.

New Year's Eve pictures, again, :P Oh yes, if you happen to wonder why most of the pictures have the same background, it's because I took them in my mom's bedroom where I always put my laptop. So now you know why.

CNY day 1 before going to Grandma's house. With dad.

When boredom attacks!

CNY day 8 after going to one of my mom's colleagues open house.

Please bare my monkey face.
Adios.