The Best Friend

Happy belated birthday to the best friend in the whole world. :* xx

So yesterday was her birthday. I just want her to know that I love her no matter whatttttt. And ps. jsyk, she's still single so ......... HEHEHE

OH LOOK. I've got bangs now.

I and she. Me and her. We. Us.

ps.I soooo miss my old hair.

How do I look? :P

Check out my feather earring. :3 

Anyways, I know my bangs is like so asdfghjkllu ugly. And I know it's like the worst haircut ever. But you know, I try to be positive and think to myself that this can't be that bad. And it actually works to boost my confidence. Trust me, I cried when I got home after I got my hair cut. And I clipped it up. And I think it looks worse but nobody actually knows that I cut my bangs. I have received a tons of, idk if it's hateful comments or what, but I kinda feel offended. It's not that I'm so sensitive or I'm having my period, BUT ehm who won't feel that way when you go to school and the first thing that anyone greets you with was wow, your hair looks different and so shitty and yadayadayadayada. Well, they don't exactly say it directly, but you can see it in their faces that that's what in their minds. Well, some did say it directly and that's really mean, I think. lol There's a junior of mine and I don't exactly keep in touch with her but when we suddenly bumped into each other the other day, she was like "ooooooooohhhhh, so uglyyyyyyyyy, why did you chop off your bangss?" How can you not feel offended? It's even stranger if you don't feel offended. Probably you don't give two craps about anyone's anything but once people say those offended comments, you'll feel uneasy kannnn? But I don't live to please you bitches. So nowwwww, I don't even care what my hair looks like anymore. Who will care anyway if even I myself don't care? Except that siao guy Arvin who keeps mocking my hair. By the way, that girl is so annoying I don't even want to talk to her anymore. lol 

Well, okay, what I'm trying to say is that maybe you hide yourself so well because you think "it's a mean world, what's everyone going to think?" Well, you can hide, but aren't you tired? Of everything? Even if you hide it so well, one day, everybody's gonna know. And fuck the world, just be yourself! Who cares if anyone's gonna judge you? 

Goodnight
xx :)

I'm A Ladykillaaahhhh

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds.
4. Have Fun!!

I have already done this before. I just feel like doing this again. Let's see.

SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

RONAN :(

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

I'm a LADYKILLER. Errrr. 

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I like BOYFRIEND.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I feel like MIRROR MIRROR. 

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
WHY YOU WANNA know so much? :p

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
BELIEVE! :)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
I WON'T EVEN START about that! 

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
That I will FIGHT FOR YOU.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
DANCE AGAIN! Heeya.

WHAT IS 2+2?

Broken Hearted </3

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
I think that they are STARSHIPS!

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Oh please. TELL ME A LIE.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
SO GOOD! Exactly!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I think of 50 Ways To Say Goodbye to him because everything is not for forever (?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?
CATCHING FEELINGS by Justin Bieber

WHAT SONG WILL PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?
BURN IT DOWN! by Linkin Park

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
WORK HARD PLAY HARD! Oh yea!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
My biggest fear is to TAKE YOU.

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
I want EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. 

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I think of my TEENAGE DREAM.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
REMEMBERING SUNDAY. I like Sundays.

I know. It's totally hilarious, and not connected. But try it. It's fun! :P

It's been a rough week. And today's a rough day indeed. I'm tired, of everything. Can I stop the time? I know that I cannot. I just wish I could.

xx

11-11-12

I bet you think I either moved on or hate you
‘Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply
I bet it never, ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you
And risk another goodbye

And I just want to tell you
It takes everything in me not to call you
And I wish I could run to you
And I hope you know that
Everytime I don’t,
I almost do, I almost do

We made quite a mess, babe
It’s probably better off this way
And I confess, babe
That in my dreams you’re touching my face
And asking me if I want to try again with you
And I almost do

I Almost Do - Taylor Swift 

Everything has been a mess. I wonder if I could turn back time. Hmm. Maybe tomorrow will be better? I wish so.

Not Young And Dumb

It’s really scary when you get attached to someone. You spend time with them, you get to know them. You find yourself knowing their favorite color, food, movie, song. You discover their flaws and their talents. And as time goes on, you learn more and more, absorbing every second of detail without even realizing it. Then one day, you wake up and realize how much this person actually means to you, and you love them for every strength and weakness. They make you feel warm and secure, but most of all, they bring you happiness. And to bring happiness to someone in such a way is a strong and powerful thing. It could break a person completely. Some say those who fall in love are young and dumb. I say they show an incredible amount of bravery. It takes courage to trust somebody with your entire heart.

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Not Anymore

You are walking down a street and you meet somebody. Anybody. And you look at each other. And you are you. And he is him. yet when you look at each other, the eyes make a connection. Then you go off one way. And he goes off another way. You go off into different parts of town, and maybe you never see each other again. Not in your whole life.

 - The Member of the Wedding by Carson McCullers

Marvelous

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Pretty Boys

Spidey hold my hand! :3

edited with picmonkey. So cute, isn't it? Anyways, happy Hallooweenie! :P

Hello. Feeling both flowery and uneasy today. (HAHAHA WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?) I had so many things to do. Pft. Busy Monday, as usual. Computer tests, physics papers and whatsoever things. Plus our teacher got Typhoid Fever and we planned to visit him in the hospital but then everything is messed up. So we cancelled and just sent the fruit parcel to his house directly instead. And then we need to breed Paramecium for our Biology Lab. Just a typical Monday. Except that today, there were 18 Korean students who came here for the student exchange program. I heard that they're from 16 different schools. And btw, they will also attend our school for .......... one day only. But can you imagine how exciting that is? There's 3 of them who are gonna be in our class; 1 guy and 2 girls. They are really friendly. And they gave out free ginseng candies. :P And the guy who will be in our class tomorrow is really ehm cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Cute isn't even enough to describe him. And until this moment, I can still smell the sweet scent of his body and I can still recall how cute he is when he talks and when he smiles and when he tries to say something but he can't find the right word for it. (ps. They can't really speak English. It's not that I'm insulting, but at least I think we're better in speaking English than they are, no offense)

Oh yea, so Thea and I, we're literally following Jessie and Belle and the Koreans around to show them our school. And trust me when I say, I don't understand a thing what they said in Korean and with their messy English, I only understand half of things they said with the speed of a turtle, slow-loading brain. My brain is still kinda slow because it's filled with the excitement of them being here, Medan, of all town in Indonesia. And by the way, there's only 3 Korean words I know, which is anyeonghaseyo, kamsehamnida, saranghamnida. OKAY. Let's just pretend I don't know any of those.

Okay. I have to stop. BUT IT'S JUST TOO AWESOME NOT TO BRAG! HA! :P
Gotta go. Need to finish my chem and physics and study my biology.
xx
Alvina