Jul 27, 2014


Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide, beyond believing
To know why, hope dies
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound, is soon to follow
Somehow, sundown

And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we called home
Passing the graves of the unknown

As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
And a reflection of a lie, will keep me waiting
With love gone, for so long

And this day's ending
Is the proof of time killing, all the faith I know
Knowing that faith, is all I hold

And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love
Without, love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on
But I know, all I know, is that the end's beginning
Who I am from the start, take me home to my heart
Let me go and I will run, I will not be silent
All this time spent in vain, wasted years, wasted gain
All is lost, hope remains, and this war's not over
There's a light, there's the sun, taking all shattered ones
To the place we belong, and his love will conquer all

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight

How could one feel so sorry but kept on making the same mistakes over and over again?
Yes I miss you, my annoying peanut. It felt so good talking to you again. :)

May 17, 2014


I have basically so much good news (of myself to myself) lol. But since I need to EHM 'study', I'm just going to make this quick and short.

Um finals is in a week. I haven't prepared for anything yet plusssss I kinda suck at everything and plusssssss my usual private tutor is not talking to me (that really sucks, like sooooooo much) and I don't think I could get everything done in time so I started studying early. Um but the very very good news is that after hours and days of persuading my dad *drum rolls pleaseeeee* FINALLYYYYY I'm going to Brastagi. After finals. With my friends (anakeksisbaikhati ftw yay). For a three-day-two-night trip. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYERS! I'm already soooo excited. Imagine the car ride, the selfies in the car ride, the barbeque, the roller coastersssss!! Too bad Aboeng (re: Lydia) is not coming with us. :( But she's going to Shanghai (and I want to go there toooo but my mom said no ugh). So I guess that's all. Hehehe. Okay then. I'm going to 'study'. Bye.

Apr 6, 2014

Lost In Stereo

Hi again. It's been a while.

#np: All Time Low's - my all time favorite
So my life has gone from drama-like to surprisingly dull this last few weeks. I'm glad. And ok maybe it's been a little bit too mundane for me. I don't do mundane. I do crazy. HA! Anyways, prom is in 2 weeks! Do you think I could handle another two boring weeks?

ps. I think I type a better post when I'm angry. :P

Mar 26, 2014

And she says I'm a hypocrite

Wise words to think about: if you love and enjoy it, don't even try to give a damn about what others might say about it. Once you even think about giving a damn, it's gonna crush you like a giant wrecking ball and you're gonna start torturing yourself. And in no time, you will start wondering if the ones who told you they loved you, have ever given a damn about you.

Cheers to more bitchy girls who read this. I hope you have a good life. :))


Bisous bitchus!

Ps. Just in case you read this (oh I'm pretty much sure you do although you might not understand like half of what I talk about here), please do swing by this blog as often as possible. It kinda increases the number of my pageviews. :)) 

Mar 15, 2014

Chin Up

"They told me that to make her fall in love, I had to make her laugh. But every time she laughs, I'm the one who falls in love." - Tommaso Ferraris

Have been smiling for quite some time because of this. Thank you for showing me love and kindness, for being so thoughtful teaching me physics (even if you know I'm going to fail), for being so caring and for still being a good friend even when I'm not being one.

This week sucks. Failed physics. Again. Will probably have my hair cut tomorrow to wash away the bad luck. Lol.

This too shall pass.
xx :)

Mar 5, 2014

The Fire's Here To Stay

Throwback to the time when Jess and I were always together and went to YC together. Gawd I miss everything. 

After craft-class with her

25/11/11 :)


hehe 8/3/12

Dear E,
Happy birthday! You are now 17! I wish you the very best for everything in the future. I know we haven't been talking for so long. And I know I was such a bitch back then. I'm so sorry if I have wronged you. I didn't mean to do that, you know. I wish you knew how sorry I was and until the moment I'm typing this, I still am. I hope that you had forgiven me for the horrible things I did to you and if you haven't, then I hope you will. I hope you're happy with your new life now! I still remember that time when I was just so afraid of 'the dog' and you, being you, laughed at me. lol I am just so lucky to have the chance to know you. I guess if I could turn back time, I'd be dumb not to go back to the time when all of those stuffs happened.

My current playlist. Check it out (:
You're my fault, my weakness. When did you turn so cold? No one shakes me like you do, my best mistake was you. Bebe Rexha Feat. Cash Cash - Take Me Home

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. Sara Bareilles - Gravity

When it's all said and done, you can walk instead of run. Cause no matter what you'll never be alone. Lady Antebellum - Compass

Now everything I do is all for loving you, it's not something that we're used to. Calvin Harris Feat. Ayah Marar - Thinking About You

If you live another day in this happy little house, the fire's here to stay. Amanda Seyfried - Little House

I am fire, you're gasoline, come pour yourself all over me. We'll let this place go down in flames only one more time. Zedd Feat. Hayley Williams - Stay The Night

First time I saw you, I knew right away. Made up my mind, you would be mine someday. Timeflies - All The Way

When you give me that thunder, you make my summer rain. Sevyn Streeter Feat. Chris Brown - It Won't Stop

Cause all of me loves all of you. Love your curves and all your edges. All your perfect imperfections. John Legend - All Of Me

If you pull then I'll push too deep and I'll fall right back to you. Zedd Feat. The Foxes - Clarity

I should be over all the butterflies, but I'm into you. And baby even on our worst nights, I'm into you. Paramore - Still Into You

Till then, fella

Jan 2, 2014

Hi. Again.

How silly I was to forget about the actual resolution.
So I guess, this is it

  • save up at least half of my salary. I really suck when it comes to money management.
  • decide which uni I'll be going to. I've never said this out loud but I'm really worried about my future. I just can't decide anything like what major I'm going to take and whatsoever things. The only thing that I can see is a black hole. So now you see how desperate I am.
  • buy more clothes. My wardrobe sucks.
  • and books too. If I have the time.
  • write down everything in a notebook. I have a lot of notebooks butttt I never have anything to write. 
  • I guess study hard should still be on the list.
  • stay fit and healthy. I know this is like the lamest resolution ever but I should really take care of myself.
  • don't eat too much of anything. Once I ate too much chocolate (on my birthday) and then I got sick 6 hours later.
  • try to at least update once in a month. I know I'm going to be very busy but I should really post something. This blog is literally already dead. 
  • And most importantly, be nice to everybody. I'll try. :p
That's it I guess for now. Corpus will open in 2 days and school's starting in 4 days. I guess I'd better make the most of tomorrow. Pft.

And yes, I almost forgot, happy birthday Janet!